It’s been 6 months since I’ve arrived here. And to be
honest, you’ve given more opportunities in the palm of my hand than I think I
could’ve ever had while I was in Vancouver. I mean, of course, I was a
different girl then; I was a college student with slipping grades and a
terrible GPA; I was working at Whole Foods and at COBS bread at the same time;
and I was also on the verge of a burgeoning blossoming romance that really
tested my patience and my fortitude because each of my romances tend to do
that, but really this one really had my attention because it always does.
But, anywho…6 months ago I was at a Hostel in downtown
Calgary, which I had known to discover, was the emptiest city I had ever seen
during the holidays. And that wasn’t even the first thing that I was startled
about; well, actually scratch that. It was. That and your Ctrain that runs
along the tracks with traffic.
And that was before I had the unpleasant experience of going
through your Cold winter and your incomprehensible closures at 6pm every single
day.
And also, while you’re at it, you have a shitton of liquor
stores at every corner. I still can’t wrap my mind around that. And I’m not
sure I actually ever will, but eh, I’ll reconcile with it at some point.
I mean after all, you have given me good things Calgary.
You’ve actually helped me push my ass into gear and
kickstart what I should’ve been doing while I was in Vancity. But then again,
maybe back then wasn’t really the time. As said, I was a student and I was
working and I didn’t really have the time nor thought process like I have now.
I have all the time in the world to really work on my craft.
Which is to tell stories.
I’m a writer, and I see myself honing my skills and turning
those stories into flesh and blood through all meaningful mediums, whether it
be short films, webseries, radio dramas, podcats, stageplays or comic books.
(All of which will be done through some shape or form within the next little
while. I’m on a roll now and I don’t wanna stop. I’ve always said these things
so I’ll shut up and act, like all of my friends are doing.)
Both of which I am currently helping others make. Because I
had no clue on how to do anything, so I’m really just leeching on others and
absorbing their life experiences to better my powers.
They’re my red chicken of power.
Ten points if you get that really bad reference. And if you
really can’t figure it out, that’s ok.
Anyway…onto what I’ve actually been doing for the past 3
months…ish.
Because actually, if I can be honest, I’ve been pretty much
sleeping in for the Winter months and then left hibernation in April and all
this work started popping up.
Like finding myself working for these oddballs at California
Balloons and helping them out with their kickpeople campaign so they can
encourage piracy. (Well actually it’s an Indiegogo campaign and it’s actually
pretty cool! Details here: https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/space-rippers#/story)
They’re also giving me lessons in planning events,
computer editing and writing incredible stories that I would throw my money at
if I wasn’t already volunteering for them.
And then, falling in love with my church and my
spirituality, which is something I’d never thought would happen. Why? I
honestly, don’t know. But at the same time, I’m glad I did. And I see my
relationship with God in a better light thanks to this new Pastor and how he
says things. He makes it so personal! And he’s pro-women! Like, seriously, how
cool is that? Like, he actively acknowledges women and includes them in his
sermons and talks about them? And he’s a pretty chill dude and some of the
church goers have tattoos? And that’s pretty cool because I WANT A TATTOO!
(Actually, I want 3; a 4-star dragon ball, a smiley face,
and the crest of love. And maybe a star.)
And I say that
because I am directly involved with them by actually doing camera work, too! So
I feel directly connected to helping out the church and I feel even better for
it!
(Note that the previous church I went to wasn’t anti-women
nor was it anti-inclusive; on the contrary, they had a RAINBOW FLAG in their
Canada Day service at Rogers Arena! And I came out to my church youth leader
when I was a lass, so they’re pretty chillz! I guess I just wasn’t completely
involved and it wasn’t quite the same!)
And then I’m also helping out at NUTV, which is the
University of Calgary’s Community Television station that airs on TV. And this
is pretty big because it gets me to see what it’s like to work in a TV studio
and have the whole thing set up and put together! And there’s a writer’s room
and a production meeting and I’m going to make an active effort to attend it
more because opportunity!
And then of course, I can’t forget that I took part in my
first guerilla shooting as I met Han Siu and his merry band of misfits as we
shot the beautiful short film Mia.
Did I mention that this was Last week?
And we shot in 8 days so he can submit it to TIFF?
And that he’s a zombie right now because he’s really
proactive and amazing and editing hours of retakes and guffaws and adlibs into
a rough cut for this morning exactly?
I really learned a lot from him and from all the actors and
crew I got to meet and work with and I’m really grateful for that. I’m honestly
thankful for having given me an opportunity to meet and work with him and all of whom I’ve met and
advised me on just continuing forward and learning. And being proactive,
because that’s what this particular business is about.
And I honestly can’t say thank you enough to all the
beautiful, hardworking and focussed artists I’ve met in so little time. Being
with you has revitalized me and encouraged me to really strive to make me the
best artist I can be. And I promise you that when you’ll get to work with me,
you’ll be in good hands. We’re all gonna make great things and you’re all
helping me get to that place. You guys remind me very much of my hardworking,
busy friends that I rarely got the chance to see when I was back home.
Despite being quickly acclimated here in the Old West, I
still call Vancity my home as a creature of habit.
But my home is where the heart is. And that’s where my passion
for stories will take me. And the way things are going, that will be anywhere
that the Director’s Guild of Canada will take me since I can go anywhere when I
soon join and become a member.
And with that in mind, I’m looking forward to a great
summer.
It’ll start with awkward hugs as I’m going to be a volunteer
PA on the set of the Storyhive winning web series Hug-o-gram for the next 2
weeks.
And then it’ll continue with MORE awkwardness, though a
gayer variety as I become involved in helping out with the web series “Awkward Mo’s” for
their second season.
And then I’ll be getting my PA certification workshop on
June 13th and starting my way up to have more on-set gigs as I learn
the ropes of actively working in the film industry and leaving my Customer
Service days behind…
And then helping out the CaliB crew with Pre-production of
Space Rippers and setting up more Cold Reads…
And also working more with NUTV and climbing up the ladder
to vague volunteer girl to PA girl to Overlord of the Universe. Or until then, writer
of one joke that made it on the script.
And falling more in love with my church as they help me with
my career as a filmmaker and help me be a better me.
And also, building up my own projects and actually having
them see the light of the day through hard work, rewrites, crying over the
rewrites, and acute time management.
…Or at least, a bloody script and assembling my avengers of
actors.
I can see myself as Nick Fury now.
I will now come on all functions with an eyepatch.
But if you must know, monogamous individuals of all genders
interested…
If you’re bored and in need of a pseudo-platonic date, lemme
know if you want arm candy. My muscle is nice and firm. (It’s 3am as I’m
writing this.)
But ALSO, know that I am currently engaged to be married my
career. It’s been courting me since childhood so we’re pretty much an OTP at
this point and we’re endgame.
So you’ll have to be ok with sharing me with my ideas and my
ever-expanding squad of aesthetically-pleasing film geeks. And I don’t care if
you’re cute, I’m not giving that up.
Not after all I’ve just started doing and all of the places
where it’ll take me.
Which by the looks of it will be long hours of gophering and
asking people for collabs…which then leads to shooting and eating and then
editing and not sleeping…
But then that leads to promoting and then the award shows.
Soon. And then the wrap parties.
Ah, the wrap parties.
And the general parties I will throw.
Cuz I’mma get turnt really high as the kids say.
Sigh. I can't wait to party.
Anyway. I should sleep now. It’ll the last time I do for a
while because it’ll get busy again.
So yeah. See you. Flipside.
Suzanne Helen James.
05/29/2015.
Labels: blogging, film, non-fiction, spasms of free thought, Suzanne Helen James
