8th post

Well, on this monday evening, I'm not especially focused on the blog (am I ever really?)

So I'll post another poem, then leave it at that.

Thoughts? Blah blah.

Emotional Symbiosis

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I know I say that i love you

But these words are not directed at you

They are directed at your shadow

Rather the vision I am making myself of you

And the you inside aches

Because it knows this

Yet he stay anyway

Yet you stay anyway

After all, you do actually love me.

Yet, yet I yearn not for you

I have never yearned for you

But i have accustomed myself to your being around me

I squeeze your kindness

And absorb it into my breast

But then you are just as cruel

For you know

You know!

What don't you know?

Yet you stay.

The fool follows.

He lies to all

Lies for me!

I am not in love

He is too in love

An obvious contrast

That isn't easily admitted

And will never be

Until I break him

If i haven't already

But..I can't do this to him.

Not anymore.

I have to let go of him.

If he is to let go of me.

Perhaps I do love him after all.

Lets just hope that he loves me back enough to release me.

As I will release him.

Until next,

See you on the flipside.

Suzanne Helen James.

11.30.09.